In early March of 86 I was
visiting my dear friend long
time Arabian horse breeder Chris
Lelli. Her drop dead
gorgeous
Aza Destiny daughter Aza
Silouette had just foaled a dark
grey filly. It was late
afternoon and Chris motioned me
to follow her to the barn. I
should have known from the
suppressed grin I was in the
treat of a lifetime.
Quietly, almost reverently
Chris led me to the foaling
stall. Inside was the most
lovely Arabian filly I have ever
seen. Even to this day I
thought her beautiful. Peeking
out from the security of her
mother's tail was this exquisite
dark filly. She looked
like a tiny fawn. Huge
black liquid eyes like tennis
balls, huge Jibbah, huge scoopy
dish, tea cup muzzle tiny,
pointy ears. I fell hopelessly
and irretrievably in love. When I
asked how much. My heart fell to
the floor, it was far more than
I could handle even with the
generous terms Chris offered me.
I watched her show
appearances, always with
longing, I so loved this mare. I
was so very happy for Liz
Bossinas who had purchased her
from Chris. Truly I was thrilled
for Lilli as she had a very
loving show home.
But a little of me was
dying inside because she could
have been mine. And time went on
and she kept wining halter
classes and Mare championships
and Most Classic head classes.
And always I wished Liz and
Lilli well, and always I kept my
peace and supported them when
they showed her. But in my
heart of hearts always I loved
her and wanted her. And I knew
deep inside, had it been meant
to be, I would have been her
owner.
Fast forward twenty
years. My dear friend Sheryl
Barbour of San El Ranch called
me and said (she knew how I felt
about this mare) "Guess who is
in my pasture?" Who, I asked. "Lilli"
she said softly.
My shirt did not hit
my back until I was in her
office signing purchase papers.
We brought her home the next
day. Life had not been kind to
my Lilli. Her left front foreleg
was lame with a severe bow that
was untreated. She had
apparently foundered once, she
was kinda creasty, but my dear
word, she still took my breath
away. Her head was to die for.
Every day for the
rest of her life I rewrapped her
leg with cotton batting and vet
wrap, to support the bow that
did not heal. Everything we did
medically she stood quietly and
allowed. She was the most
dignified, patient and loving
mare I had ever seen. She was
the Queen of the farm and she
knew it.
Twice we bred her to
Ray Dor Echo and twice she
slipped the foal. Ray Dor loved
her to distraction. He always
started talking to her the exact
moment her foot touched the
ground. We always smiled because
they were like two long lost
lovers when they saw each other.
When she was at home,
she was Dakhan's mare, his
pasture mate.
When she came home from
the last journey to Falconcrest,
as I led to go down the hill to
the barn, she called out to him,
announcing her return. There was
no usual answering bellow from
the barn. Silence. She looked at
me. Something was not right. She
called again. louder. No answer.
I slipped the halter off and let
her go. My vet and Debbie Waite
said to turn her loose and she
would figure it out. And she
did.
She found everyplace
where we had worked on Dak, the
IVS were hung under the trees by
the barn, she retraced our
footsteps, found where he had
gone down, and found the exact
spot where he had died. Lastly
she found the place where we had
buried him. She stood smelling
the ground for the longest time,
then slowly she sank down and
laid upon his grave.
People can say what they
want about animals not having
emotions, but I know what I saw
that day. With God as my witness
I know that Lilli wept.
After a few months we
sent Lilli to Pilchuk Animal
Hospital in Snohomish for a
complete reproductive work up
only to find she was a grade IV
uterus with an incomplete 5 cm
cervical tear. Plans were laid
for an embryo transfer with my
other mares as surrogate
(recipient) moms.
Fate intervened once
more. Lilli foundered again.
This time very bad. We worked on
her for months and pulled her
through. We decided to try to
get her into shape and try the
ET the next year. We still had
hope. We just had to get Lillie
healthy again. (my vet bills now
equaled the national debt)
On a beautiful November
morning my son found Lilli down
again. I went flying down the
hill and into her stall. She was
in terrible pain, and the blood
began to pound in my ears. I got
her up and out into the pasture
so Jack our vet would have room
to work on her.
We lost her that
morning, she died on the exact
same spot in the pasture that
Dakhan did. She died with her
exquisite head in my lap, and I
kept telling her how much I
always loved her, that she was
our queen, a precious jewel.
We never got a baby
from Lilli, but count every day
we had her as a precious gift
from God. She had many good
days with us, and brought us
much joy and happiness just
being in her presence.
We are better
horse people for having known
her.
"Everything dies.......even
stars burnout."